I've fallen off the face of the earth for awhile...

It's not so bad to be off the edge.

You can see a lot more from far away than from close up.

Things make more sense when you're away for awhile.

Wonder what it would be like to just stay here.

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Haunted, fearful, wistful, cold.
Running, chasing, hiding, fighting,
Stressing, yelling, laughing, old.

Floating, falling, crying, sinking,
Giving, taking, pleasing, faking,
Shifting, calling, weeping, sleeping.

Saving, caring, sharing, separating,
Helping, loving, trusting, forgiving,
Confessing, rejecting, praying, embracing.

Memories, friends, youth, laughter.
Church, light, books, ignorance,
Talent, love, nature, happiness.

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Hi to everyone!
I've been gone. I still am. Just had time to drop off a note and wish everyone well. I'm going through some stuff right now. I'll see you on the other side.
Until then, peace be with you.

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This is a crazy universe we live in. We plan things, expect things, anticipate things... And most of the time, it all works out. Sometimes, it works out so well and so often, we start feeling like we're in control of it all. If it goes on long enough, we feel in complete command of ourselves, our world, our decisions, our lives. We cruise on through, feeling pretty good about our lives, feeling like good people, feeling like nothing will ever change or hurt or go wrong.

We're fools.

Nothing in particular has gone wrong with me this week. But everything is out of whack. I'm not the same person I was a week ago. And while I'm supremely glad about that - I wasn't very happy with who I was - it's still very unsettling to be faced with the daunting task of sorting out my life from scratch.

I suppose I have some good foundations: good friends, supportive family, a loving Creator, and a will to be better.

I suppose that's all I need at this point. Should be interesting, to say the least.


In other news, I've given up junk food and secular music for Lent. At an earlier point in my life, I was able to give up far more. But I'm not that person anymore. I'm trying to be again, but I have to start small. You don't tackle the mountain before trying the Bunny Hill first.

Second, I can't stand our dial-up connection. I told everyone I'd be online all through Spring Break, and then it goes and craps out on us! Can't bloody STAND MSN!!!

Third, I spent Sunday with Andy Hite, and he gave me his band's rough-cut CD. And then he got in the backseat of my car with his guitar and played the songs that weren't on the CD for me. :-D That was the nicest thing to happen in my world in a long time.

Fourth, I went to the Ash Wednesday service at my church. I don't know why, but I've always tried to make it to Ash Wed. It's a rebirth-y type service, and I really needed that, especially this year.

Fifth, I still have not sat myself down and WORKED on my Honors Proposal, and it's gettin' to be crunch time here. Tomorrow should be fine.

Sixth, Master of Orion III is HUGE. It's going to take FOREVER to learn that game. :-D I can't wait!

Seventh, even though I left a note in his journal already, Happy (belated) Birthday to KC!!! I can't believe you're 21! Ack!

Eighth (wow, that word looks bizarre), Smalltown Poets is a great Christian band, and anyone even remotely interested in Christian music should listen to their first CD.


I have a lot on my mind. Be back later... I guess.